I was searching through my photo archives for a specific picture which means I was going through them one by one . . . it is safe to say I got sidetracked a few times. Maybe even teared up a couple of times. Finally found the one I was looking for and then went back to looking back at the last 2 1/2 years of our life.
How can my sweet babies be growing up so fast?! I will admit there has been the occasional panic today wondering if I am cherishing them and this time enough?! Do they know how much I adore them?! Why does it feel like Caroline is going to graduate tomorrow?! How is it that Sascha is not still a nursing infant and Bo a sweet pacifier sucking toddler?! When did Tru turn into a boy, boy?!
Mainly, though, there is just sweet joy as I look over our completed family and wonder how I ever lived without them. (I do have vague memories of sleep and spur of the minute movies and far fewer groceries.)
Confession. Some days I want to run away for an extended vacation. Today, as I was changing Bo's underwear because he couldn't be bothered to stop playing to run to the bathroom and trying not to dry heave because it is so gross, I was not reveling in the glories of motherhood. You should also know that our too good to be true babysitter was here today and I got home at the beginning of nap time, so I have had enough "time off" today to appreciate them.
I just know that we are on the verge of new seasons with Caroline and I cannot believe it. I am aware that I am days away from the potty training adventure with Sascha which will usher in our first diaper free era in 9 years. Along with that comes the planning for her "big girl room" and a time not far off when we will also have a house without a crib for the first time ever (we bought our first house when I was about 36 weeks pregnant with Caroline). Bo doesn't nap anymore and Tru is really into Star Wars and Batman and toot noises and video games.
It's going so fast . . . even when it is going soooooooooooooooooo slooooooooooooow.
Here are a few of the pictures that spurred on this hormonal trip down memory lane . . . .
night before Sascha is born
September 17, 2008
look how little the "BIG" sister is!
Tru
Bo . . . not even 2 years old
our first picture of all 6 of us
Christmas 2008
first day of school 2009 (K, 2nd)
Christmas 2009
Disney World
first day of school 2010 (1st, 3rd)
Granny's house
Christmas 2010
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Rachel...I love reading your blog and keeping up with you guys!! Can I go with you when you run away?? Richard has been gone since last Friday and we are just in survival mode right now. It is such an emotional roller coaster being a mom--you want them to grow-up and be able to do more "big kid" things, but then once they can you just want them to be little again. Like you, I hope my kids know how much I adore them and would never want to live life without them.
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aww . . . Karen we miss you guys! my college roommate lives in mckinney . . . if you ever need insurance her family sells state farm there ;)
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