Honesty

 . . . is such a lonely word, everyone is so untrue . . .

Sorry . . . when I typed out the word honesty, Billy Joel started singing in my head.

I am ALL over the place today. Really. So get ready to enter crazy.

First of all, I am so excited that baby Brooke is going to be here TODAY!!!!!!!! Sweet Julie, who a lot of you know, is laboring as we speak and I am itching to get up there and love on her and, soon, Brooke. I love baby day. I am just giddy and over the moon about her!

It's weird how you can feel such drastic and polar opposite things at the exact same time. As silly happy as I am about Brooke, we also have 2 families of precious friends who will be moving soon and my heart is so sad. I want to cross my arms and stomp my feet and refuse their moves. (Like that would matter in the long run, can you imagine? Oh, Rachel is going to throw a fit, we better not go.) But my heart, aching as it may be, knows that they are both doing exactly what God has called them to. So, sweet friends, please know that I would like to slash all the tires on your moving vans but I won't because I am proud of you and excited for what God has in store for you all.

Personally, if I am being honest, as my title suggests, I have not been feeling well lately. My hormones are all over the place (sorry, Tracy and Josh) and my thyroid is off. When I say hormones, I don't mean I sit around crying and throwing things all the time (although there are days . . . ).  I mean, literally, my lab worked showed that my hormone levels are NOT ideal. I'm having physical symptoms (I'll spare you) and fatigue. So, I have started taking some medication to try and level them off, and y'all . . . have you ever listened to the disclaimers at the end of pharmaceutical commercials and thought, "The symptoms CAN'T be worse than the side effects!!" Umm, yeah, I am so there. The hormone creams make me feel like I am having morning sickness . . . ugh . . . so I have been taking the anti-nausea medicine I took when I was pregnant. Anyway, I can't remember where I was going with this . . . maybe it was just to complain.

OH! No, I remember now! So, I, of course, have been wondering if there is some bigger problem going on . . . and at times, to be honest, I worry that it is something really bad and the symptoms I am having are masking a bigger, scarier problem. I must have gone to bed thinking about that because a couple of nights ago I had a dream that I tried out for American Idol and made it to Hollywood (haha, not possible) and they did blood work when I got there (what?) and told me I had cancer. Interpret that, someone.

Anyway . . . there is no good way to wrap this all up . . . so . . . I am just going to post one of my favorite pictures of Sassy Sissy and then go munch on her sweet cheeks! Have a great day!